It’s been about a year since I started my current “hard mode” streak. I viewed no porn, had no sex, and abstained from masturbation. It wasn’t easy but it wasn’t terribly hard either, as I’ve recorded hard mode streaks of two or more years in the past.
My current mindset is to try not to care or have any interest in sex and women. This is not easy for me as my ego and fleshy desires are incredibly stubborn, unruly, devious, and hard to annihilate. This is despite countless brutal rejections from girls in my teens and 20s, a decade of nofap, and years of meditation and spiritual study.
I gained a bit of muscle and strength this past year but not as much as I could have, because my schedule didn’t allow me to lift weights regularly.
I did not experience any breakthroughs in meditation despite meditating 40 or more minutes daily. Improvement has been very slow, subtle, and gradual in the form of better concentration, more self-awareness, better intuition, and noticing of synchronicities.
I plan to go for 11 more years in hardmode to test the claim that 12 years of celibacy leads to god-realization. The saying may be a metaphor not to be taken literally, and the required period of abstinence may vary depending on a person’s capacity and karma. But I do believe the message that saving sexual energy over a long period enhances spiritual development.