Since childhood, I suffered from brain fog and body fog. This was even before I started masturbating at age 16. My mind never felt very sharp, clear, or energetic when I was young. I read a lot of novels but beyond that my mind was mediocre, sloppy, lazy, and shallow. My body fog symptoms included dyspraxia, weak/slow muscles, and drowsiness. I also had frequent nosebleeds that would last for minutes.
The fogs worsened drastically after I started masturbating, I was rendered a semi-invalid. I couldn’t focus on any text beyond magazines, comic books, and novels. I never improved in running or weights despite regular training, and I was extremely passive, shy and lacking in social confidence. In addition, a fog in one area would affect not just that area but also the other aspects of my functioning.
I didn’t make progress in anything in my teens or 20s; in fact I degenerated. I studied a useless social science at university and my grades were not good enough for a decent grad school so I didn’t even apply. My muscle mass and lifts never went beyond beginner level despite years of sporadic training. I was too shy and scared to work at a job related to my major so I took dead-end office jobs where I didn’t learn anything and got bullied by middle-aged men. I had no real friends or girlfriend although I desperately wanted them.
After I quit masturbating, the fogs slowly lifted. I was fully celibate for 3 or 4 years before the brainfog started clearing. I think daily meditation helped a lot in clearing the brain fog. The body fog (dyspraxia/weakness/drowsiness) lifted relatively quickly, in about a year.
I don’t know why I had those fogs in the first place. Were they from some tangible cause like malnutrition or loss of blood? Or were they a part of the “bad energy” package I received from intergenerational or past life karma. With celibacy and a decent lifestyle, I am working to be free of them for good.